littlethespian1's Journal

12:22am: Hello.

11:05pm: so...its been 10000000 years since i posted.




the end.

1:11pm: woo enjoy

Bored? ((Over 100 questions))
Created by xSwtLilAngel666x and taken 68917 times on bzoink!
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::	nick
Birthplace ::	fayetteville
Age ::	14
Age you act ::	probably a mature 16 or 17 yr old
Current location ::	fayetteville..haha
Eye color ::	a sea green/blue greenish
Hair color ::	dirty blond
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::	lefty
Zodiac sign? ::	taurus
Height? ::	5'9''
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::	mainly italian, and proud of it!
Your hair ::	shaggy and semi-long
Your fears ::	knives and crickets
Your perfect room ::	uh what?
What you practically do in a day ::	eat, sleep, drum, act, talk, movies, friends
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::	the curse words
Phrases you overuse ::	your mom!! hahaha
Your first thought when you wake up ::	i wish i could go back to bed
Your greatest accomplishment ::	being born!
Something you want to do ::	jump of the highest building in the world...but with a bungee cord of course
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::	coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::	mcdonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::	uh they both suck, but if ur talkin hottness, its britney
Chocolate or vanilla ::	chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::	neither
Black or white ::	grey ;)
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::	bills dude
Burgers or hot dogs ::	burgers
Egypt or France ::	france
Rock or rap ::	rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::	hell no
Cuss ::	yes
Sing well ::	eh im ok
Sing in the shower ::	yea but i lip sync
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::	not a lot, but i do
Believe in yourself ::	yea
Like taking these longass surveys? ::	sometimes
Play an instrument ::	the drums
Want to go to college? ::	yes i do
Want to get married? ::	yes
Want to have children? ::	yes
Think you're a health freak? ::	omg no
Get along with your parents ::	for the most part
Get along with your siblings? ::	yea i love her to death
Think you're popular ::	i know that a lot of people know me...and if thats popularity then yea.
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::	nope
Drank alchohal ::	yes, but like a sip of wine here and there
Smoke ::	no
Get high ::	no
Done any drugs ::	no
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::	lol no
Been on stage ::	yep!
Gone skinny dipping ::	i wish, i love skinny dipping
Been dumped ::	nope
Dyed your hair ::	nope
Stolen anything ::	probably like a pencil or somethin
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::	baker
Loudest ::	me haha
Most shy ::	jenna! ur so quiet around me
Blondest ::	courtney lol
Smartest ::	MASHIE
Kindest ::	spruce
Best personality ::	spruce
Most talented ::	your mom
Best singer ::	your dad
Most ghetto ::	no clue
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::	zoe!
Pain in the ass ::	this kid named doug in my 3rd and 4th period class
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::	i love like everyone i know haha
Funniest ::	chris is pretty funny
Best person for advice ::	lesley
Dependable ::	lesley
Trustworthy ::	lesley
Druggie ::	peter! i love you man
Most likely to end up in jail ::	peter! haha
Person you've known the longest ::	spruce..since preschool
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::	ok this is gonna sound wierd, but i dreamed i had sex with lesley (there wasnt anything really detailed thoug, and i woke up with my shirt and pj's off...it was so wierd! haha
Last nightmare ::	i dont have nightmares
Car ride ::	from this law firm where i did a film shoot
Last time you cried ::	its been a while, i think around late september
Last movie seen ::	uh...i think napoleon dynamite
Last movie rented ::	napoleon dynamite with lesley
Last book read ::	no clue
Last word said ::	hold on...haha its been a while..OH i remember! i said "thanks"
Last curse word said ::	shit
Last time you laugh ::	when i was on the phone w/lesley
Last phone call ::	lesley
Last CD played ::	anti-flag
Last song you listened to ::	i dont know the name of it
Last annoyance ::	having to do that film shoot..i was so tired
Last IM ::	to emily last night
Last weird encounter ::	nadia last night at arsagas
Last person you hugged ::	i think melissa?
Last person you yelled at ::	i dont remember..im not much of a yeller
Last time you wore a skirt ::	one year ago during a play lol
Last time you've been evil ::	define evil?
Sarcastic? ::	with mark smith at the film shoot
Last time you fought with your parents ::	yesterday
Last time you wished upon a star ::	about a month or two ago
Played Truth or Dare ::	3 or 4 months ago w/lesley
Spent quality time alone ::	um..now that i think about it..i realize im really busy
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::	nope, im not on..which is really odd
Do you feel lonely ::	currently, yes i do
Ever TP'd someone's house ::	haha nope, and that would be mean..unless it was a joke
How about egging someone's house ::	nah
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::	um...penis
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::	LyKe OmG!!!
Yo Momma ::	haha!!! wow!! thats like my #1 phrase
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::	haha yes i have
What do you think of George Bush? ::	i support him...but i respect other peoples opinions, i just wish that people would fucking respect my opinion instead of hounding my ass about liking him
Any secret fetishes? ::	this probably isnt an uncommon fetishes, but its just something about seeing a girl in her panties...its hot
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::	um no
How many languages do you speak? ::	1
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::	actually..i was commenting on how my fingers were sore
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::	actually im not, i enjoyed this survey
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12:21am: oh yea..um about the post that said "damn damn damn, i think i might be in love" or whatever...well let me tell u the whole situation (that post was in my xanga)



im goin out with lesley right now. ive known her for over a year. we went out last year for 4 months, and now we r goin back out and its been about two months. we communicate so well, and i tell her like everything. theres no girl that ive had this connection with before...not even dennie...we never talked that well to each other.

so part of me is like "yea, well duh u love her..i mean u just click with her" and we do thats true...but im just afraid to say "love" at this age.

when i went out with dennie she said she "loved" me. and at first i felt like i was obligated to say i loved her. then i fell into this false sense of certainty, where i BELIEVED i loved her. and so after the break up and i realized i didnt love her..it was hard and it hurt.

i guess im afraid of that word..i just dont know what to do.

am i rushing in to this too fast? or am i just over analizing?

im..just...scared, ya know?



any comments from anyone will be MORE than welcome.

thx u guys

i just dont know how i feel

if u would rather post in my xanga its
dance_with_me_in_the_rain

10:24pm:

The Great LiveJournal Outage of 2005 During the outage I hung out at Arsagas like 20 times more than i did before livejournal went out. What did you do? Brought to you by geek-foo

9:23pm: At a certain college there was a professor with a reputation for being tough
on Christians. Every semester during the first class, he asked if anyone was
a Christian and proceeded to degrade them and to mock their statements of
faith.

One semester, he asked the question and a young man raised his hand. The
professor asked, "Did God make everything young man?"

He replied, "Yes sir, he did!"

The professor responded, "If God made EVERYTHING, then he made evil."

The student didn't have a response, and the professor was happy to once
again prove the Christian faith to be a myth. Then another student raised
his hand and asked, "May I ask you something, sir?"

"Yes, you may," responded the professor.

The young man stood up and said, "Sir, is there such a thing as cold?"

"Of course there is! What kind of a question is that? Haven't you ever
been cold?"

The young man replied, "Actually, sir, cold doesn't exist. What we consider
to be cold is really an absence of heat. Absolute zero is when there is
absolutely no heat, but cold does not really exist. We have only created
that term to describe how we feel when heat is not there."

The young man continued, "Sir, is there such a thing as dark?"

Once again the professor responded, "Of course there is."

And once again, the student replied, "Actually, sir, darkness does not
exist. Darkness is really the absence of light. Darkness is only a term
developed to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally, the young man asked, "Sir, is there such a thing as evil?"

The professor responded, "Of course! We have rapes, murders and violence
everywhere in the world. Those things are evil."

The student replied, "Actually, sir, evil does not exist. Evil is simply
the absence of God. Evil is a term developed to describe the absence of
God. God did not create evil. It isn't like truth, or love which exist as
virtues like heat or light. Evil is simply the state where God is not
present, like cold without heat, or darkness without light."

The professor had nothing to say.

Be full of Christ today; there is no room for anything else.

7:24pm: 1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your lj and see what I say about you?

take this quiz i stole from jennifer! haha

4:29pm: yes, i know i have posted this before, but it just cracks me up every time

you can find this on www.bash.org


you know what's ALWAYS bothered me? cold cereal mascots
I mean that is just some FUCKED UP SHIT
the Trix rabbit, for example
I dunno man... if I were him I'd be fucking KILLING some kids
I remember a commercial where the fuckin rabbit WENT INTO A FUCKIN STORE AND BOUGHT A BOX OF TRIX WITH HIS OWN FUCKIN MONEY.
fuckin kids came outta NOWHERE and basically fuckin mug the poor stupid bitch rabbit
"silly rabbit Trix are for kids"
Fuckin rabbit just sits there and looks depressed.
FUCK NO that wouldn't fly with me
I'd have pimp-slapped EVERY ONE OF those fuckin bitches
and made them go get me the REST of a "complete breakfast" and eat Trix right in front of them bitches and THEN beat the shit out of them some more.
and wtf is with the disguises? All the dumb rabbit does is hide his ears and all of a sudden he's a fuckin kid?
I dunno about you, but if I SAW a 6 foot fuckin RABBIT with his ears tucked under a baseball cap, I wouldn't immediately think
"Hey, there's a cool lookin human kid, let me go over and share some of my cereal with him"
NO.
I'd be thinking
"that's a 6 foot fuckin RABBIT with his ears tucked under a baseball cap... what the FUCK was I just smoking?"
another thing... wtf is up with cereal being "A part of this complete breakfast"
last time -I- checked, cereal WAS breakfast
they show a big ass bowl of frosted flakes next to a waffle, a pancake, toast, a banana, a fuckin grapefruit... who the FUCK eats a breakfast that big
not me
I don't even EAT breakfast nomore
I mean, I eat when I get up
but the whole thought "BREAKFAST IS ONLY SERVED UNTIL SUCH AND SUCH TIME"
bitch, you make my fucking sausage and egg sandwich when I pay you the fucking money
don't give me that shit.
Back to stupid cereal mascots...
Lucky Charms.
FUCKING LUCKY CHARMS
Lucky can turn the fucking MOON into a marshmallow, and he can't escape a bunch of fucking 6 year olds?!?!?
C'mon now, Lucky.
I KNOW your bitch ass has got to have a "Blow the fucking kids up" spell SOMEWHERE
or make "kid marshamllows" and EAT those bitches.
"They're after me Lucky Charms!"
....
KILL THEM, BITCH!
I dunno why I went off on this rant here
it's just always bothered me."

9:15pm:

The Great LiveJournal Outage of 2005 During the outage I bought a smal Eastern European nation. What did you do? Brought to you by geek-foo

5:19pm: well...here i am in the library for 10 more minutes before my father picks me up. h/w is done, and now i have to memorize all my lines before tommorow...geez. o well

i had a nice cranberry italian soda. it was really nice...sitting by myself, sipping my italian soda, watching it rain outside, not worrying about anything...just clearing my mind. i almost fell asleep..

lesley came over last night, and that was a nice way to end the break. hope she had fun at school. lol.

i am really hungry, but all i have is 20 cents and i really want a bagel or a muffin or something. but noooo. there is so much more i want to type about things, so i will type them in my private lj, that no one knows about..haha oooo the mystery!

love to you guys

nick

<3

11:44pm: wow, i feel like a dumbass. i have a cold and my mom got me some tylenol cold medecine. and like seriously..i spent at least 10 minutes trying to take out the pill out of that plastic wrap that its in...and i was like literally sweating and i was thinking to myself "there has to be an easier way to open these damn things" and then, with closer examination, it hit me..in big ass red letters "PEEL HERE" god i feel like a dumass. haha.

have u ever noticed that when u buy a cleaning product it always says "kills 99.9% of bacteria" or "kills 99.9% germs%" or "be 99.9% clean"

uh...why the fuck cant u go the extra mile and kill that lil' .1% bacteria guy?
doesnt make sense

oh oh oh and if like u do use that stuff and u remain with that lil .1% bacteria left, and you come back 10 minutes later and spray the remaining .1% of that bacteria...does the cleaning product kill 99.9% of that .1%?

wow..too deep for me man. just to deep

9:37am: MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

i love all of you. i really do. ur all special to me


have a kick ass christmas!

6:59pm: who cant wait till the break?!?!?!



*raises hand*

8:50pm: hey you guys, i havent posted in a while so yes, here i am.

the drum set is in my room, i havent already posted that, and its playing wonderfully.

ugh finals all this week and it really sucks. im studying for science with burnett right now. i damn that class everytime i set foot in there. lucky for me though, my friend dylan wrote a 5 page study guide and made copies for 15 of his friends, and burnett is allowing us to use flash cards with any information we want on it...so i basically have the whole study guide on flash cards. hehe. i hope i do good.

i cant wait till xmas break, and i think im not the only one :)

this weekend is going to be a lot of fun. friday im goin to arsagas
and then on saturday lesley is comin over for dinner and help trimmin our tree. and maybe a walk afterwards :)

then sunday god knows what

well, ive basically gotten all my xmas presents im going to get...parents paid for 200 dollars of the drum set, and all the money im getting from relatives i have to use to pay off the set, so yea. haha. o well. i mean..i should be complainin, i mean..i have a fucking drum set in my room...how many people can friggin say that?! so yes im happy..plus i really dont want anything this xmas..i think its cuz i wanna become like less greedy and be more of a give and less of a taker...so if u guys r getting me anything, dont..a hug will suffice :)

today i went to the mall with lesley, gina, noah, and brian and that was a lot of fun.

well hopefully all will be good for my xmas


and have a merry xmas everybody..or haunika or kwanza or whatever the hell u celebrate. love you guys to death





<3

2:14pm: lesley and i r back together :)

9:33am: wow wow wow.
yesterday was soo much fun.

first i had auditions for the lion witch and the wardrobe, and i saw all my buddies, like melissa, pete, allison, dana, tori, sue, and bunches more.

then i went to stevens house to play dnd (haha yea, nerd game, it owns tho so shut up)

then spruce came over to my house for dinner and we went to arsgas.

only two people showed up!! omg we invited like 15. so all u guys reading this that were invited, im very dissappointed in all of you. but it was really fun just to hang out with lesley rachel and spruce. haha.

then it took my parents a lot of convincing, but i finally got them to give in, so i could go over to lesley's house with rachel and spruce to watch a movie. but it turned out spruce couldnt go :(. so it was only lesley and rachel and me. we watched the mummy...which wasn't as bad as i expected it to be...but i still thought it was a lil corny (sry lesley :P) and then i came home, and my dad, who was not mad, but not in the best moods of them all...made me go right to bed, which pissed me off..but i didnt say anything, cuz he let me go over to lesley's. so yea

it was really fun, and i had a blast.


not that anyone cares tho!
haha


<3

10:29pm: *sigh*..whew

5:55pm: wow...i have an 89 in marzoni. like. wow. i might ACTUALLY pull off an A in MARZONI's class. that would be like breaking a world record

angie, i would like to borrow those notes sometime soon!

6:00pm: i reeeeealy have to pee

5:44pm: woooo im in the library for 15 more minutes and im so bored, so i thought i would post in this.

dude. today was a cool day. i dont really know why it was a cool day but it just was. like nothing bad really happened...i remembered all my h/w, aced my spanish quiz, and plus im getting my drums this sunday...which has nothing to do with school actually haha. OH! mr guthrie and i talked about drums during class for about 10 minutes while everyone else was working on their homework. it was fun. he knows a lot about drums than i thought. so yes 20 cool points for guthrie.

well sigh...life is still just blah.

love to all who could use it

<3

10:52pm: yes, i know, i havent posted in this forever. im too lazy to do it..


well first things first, i bought my drum set last saturday. pearl export 5-peice, pearl cymbals (i know shutup, they blow) 2 hi-hat cymbals and one crash/ride (yea i know shutup) hopefully i will get some sabian cymbals for my b-day, or maybe i will scrounge up 180 for better cymbals. thanks to those who donated, it really did help. i got 41 dollars in donations. oh and remo heads too.

hank put eyeliner on me today, and i must say...makeup is not my thing. lol. i got the occasional "thats hot" but most people told me i looked like a fag. eh...not like i dont get that all the time for wearing pink shirts and shoes. heh. i really do find it interesting that we judge those by what we wear. i think its a stupid stereotype.

yes
well

things other than that are just meh.
girls
parents
music


just all wah (wah?) haha


i love you guys, i really really do.

this may never start
tearing out my heart...
can i be your memory?



<3

9:56pm: omg, this god hates fags thing is insane! they dont even treat the gay population like people, they just call them "fags" well they are the fags..this is really pissing me off...and some preacher is giving a lecture or something right, well i would like to know when and where, i have a few things to say to this guy. im friggin pissed, so if anyone knows where and when this is happening tell me. what made me MADDER was the website with people publicly saying god hates "Fags". and they had smiles on their faces like it was no fucking big deal. god hates no one, but i know that he is frowning down on these IDIOTS more than he is the homosexuals, if he is even frowning on them at all.

ok
well
anyways
that
was
my
rant

in other news
i checked out the postal service from the library yesterday, um, they rock. haha. im gonna buy their album

melissa and i r gonna practice our skit at the library tommorow so that wil be fun.

i got back from cym today. twas fun.

um wow. i love you guys. even tho u never post a comment. i just love you all

<3 nick

8:38pm: wooooo! i got to play on the schools trap set for like 45 minutes before school. i brought my own sticks and michael brought his guitar and we just fucking jamed. it was so fun. but turns out i wasnt allowed to play on the set, cuz the band director bitched at the whole band class about someone using the drum set, and one of my friends was like "um dude, we took all the heat for you playin on the drum set" haha o well, i guess i cant play on it anymore, i just have to wait for a month when i get it myself.
haha
well
love
to
all
nick

8:03pm:

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

11:48pm: sigh...i think i like her...

but idk

theres this other guy that she likes and he likes her, and im sort of off the side. but thats ok...i mean if she likes him better, than thats ok, if its what she wants then im happy...cuz i really have a lot of feelings for her and i want her to be happy

eh

damn